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Name: Sarah
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Metro: Marquette
Birthday: 11/29/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: love, truth, faith, hope, music, biking, Irish dance, being outside, saxophones, squirrels, concerts, Jesus Christ, hugs, people, twins, Kyle, mountains, reading, photography, water, the Great Lakes, Michigan, geology, meteorology, rocks, soils, social justice, mittens, The Black Hills, Appalachia, traveling, environmental issues, guinea pigs and so much more...
Expertise: being random, chasing squirrels, orchestrating the song to accomodate the moment, throwing big guys around in mosh pits, hugs, consuming Jones sodas and pixy stix, being a clone, having fun, drinking pepsi when there is severe or unusual weather, eating nutter butters while out rockhounding, swimming in the frigid waters of Lake Superior, being bionic and thus being the other half of my superhero duo, reminiscing and living life to the fullest
Occupation: well... I'm working on finding
Industry: the geosciences, I think.
Message: message me
AIM:  irishdancerchik
Yahoo:  irishdancerchik
Member Since:
9/3/2004
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| hi friends-
As many of you know, my life has been forever changed by suicide. It robbed me of a grandfather before I was born. I've lost several friends to it. I have almost lost some of my best friends. Even I have almost gone down that dark road more than once.
In response to this, I have decided to participate in the Missoula Out Of The Darkness community walk this coming Saturday, September 12th, 2009. The walk goes from 11 am until 2 pm.
Since the walk is this coming Saturday morning, I have set a fundraising goal of $500 that I would like to see met. I have faith that it will be surpassed... Any donation will be greatly appreciated, even the smallest bit.
If you cannot support me financially, then please consider joining me in prayer. (or think good thoughts too, if that's more your style...) Pray for me, as I walk what might be the hardest 3 hour walk I have ever taken. Pray for those who you know have struggled or succumb to this. Pray that every cent raised by me and the other thousands who walk would be used wisely, to help others receive the help they so desperately need, to fund research into better resources for those struggling with depression...
A bit about the AFSW:
The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention is at the forefront of research, education and prevention initiatives designed to reduce loss of life from suicide. With more than 33,000 lives lost each year in the U.S. and over one million worldwide, the importance of AFSP's mission has never been greater, nor our work more urgent.
My Reasons for Walking:
- because if it hadn't been for the grace of God and some very good friends, I would have committed suicide in either 1996 or 2007.
- for my grandfather, whom I never had the chance to meet. He died 10 or so years before I was born.
- June 18th, 2008. (don't ask, cause I won't discuss it.)
- for my friends, some of whom have survived, some of whom haven't.
SO.
That being said, if you would please consider supporting me either financially or with prayer/good thoughts, I would tremendously appreciate it.
http://afsp.donordrive.com/participant/sarahannholt
and if you are currently struggling with this, please, please, please... I urge you, get help! there are resources available. You are not alone in this, and eventually this too will pass. Talk to a friend, clergy, prof/teacher, or call 1-800-suicide (it's the number for the National Hopeline Network) Just... please... don't give up.
thanks for reading this, friends. may you be blessed.
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| holy crap! I last posted in NOVEMBER?!
man, I'm lame sauce!
sorry about that, guys...
well let's see.
Since November:
- my cousin came out of the coma, but he's still largely an invalid. I don't think he'll ever recover.
- I helped one of my best friends move to Seattle. I discovered that I never want to see most of North Dakota ever again. I also almost stumbled upon something when we crashed at Kyle's. I'll get to that in a minute.
- My sister moved home from NYC. I was glad, cause I worried less about her. We fought for a few months, but then we got along well. I prefer being friendly with her as opposed to arguing. She's pretty awesome.
- I turned 5^2. I'm a quarter-century old. It's not too shabby.
- I got a job at a coffee shop and I left it in May (getting to the reason...)
- Kyle proposed. I said yes. (I almost found the ring in November...) The date is set (May 29th next year), the dress is bought, and the sites are booked. meh. I hate weddings. Still. Too much fuss and crap.
- I went to Winter Carnival and back to visit Marquette. I miss it there. I want to live in the U.P. for the rest of my days. Not gonna lie...
- I met the awesome Tim. He's quite possibly one of the best people I've ever met. My only wish is that we had gotten to spend more time together. I'm really, really, really glad he's my friend. I don't tell him that enough.
- I decided to move to Montana. I started saving for it. I moved out to Missoula in May. I enjoy living 5 blocks away from Kyle, but I won't lie... I miss my fam and friends in the Mitten (or wisconsin... or ohio...illinois...the eastern U.S.)
- I have started classes with the intentions of becoming a middle school science teacher. I know. I'm crazy.
-I have a job out here in Missoula. It's ok. I'm a housekeeper. And the next time I have to clean poo out of a shower, I'm quitting.
- and I have to go to bed. I must work in the a.m. It also helps that I've caught you all up to speed.
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well, I detest this month.
we can just skip it and go straight to December.
and yes, that means skipping my birthday.
(I'm ok with this, as it holds painful memories...)
Why?
it's cause most of the really terrifying and upsetting events of my life have happened in November (like my mom's week long hospital stay and my maternal grandmother's stroke...)
this November isn't shaping up to be much different than November 2003.
please keep in mind I'm getting these details secondhand, as I am not there, but this is what's going on...
My cousin Corwin was involved in a serious car accident on Friday
(Halloween). He was driving down Burns Rd. in Milford when he lost
control (?) of the vehicle and hit a tree. He was driven by ambulance
to St. Mary's Church and airlifted to Beaumont Hospital in Royal Oak.
He sustained a lot of trauma to his head: part of his brain is
separating (from what, I don't know...), his spine separated from the
base of his skull (which has probably caused damage to his brain stem),
facial fractures, swelling... and a collapsed lung. He's in a medically
induced coma, which is probably the best thing for him at this time.
It's not looking too good. I wish I could say he's out of the woods,
but I'd be lying. There's a chance he might not make it. Even if he
does, he might not walk again. I don't know... and the doctors don't
know anything for sure either. It will probably take weeks, if not
months to determine the full scope of the damage done. The next day to
three days will really be the deciding factor between a funeral or
rehab...
so if you could either toss up a prayer or a good thought (or several),
I know everyone in my family would really appreciate it...
(quasi-cross-posted to my facebook)
I'm listening to the following: "I Won't Turn Away" and "Asya" by The Billions, "Holy, Holy, Holy" as done by Sufjan Stevens and "Messes of Men" by mewithoutYou
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| life has been... crazy(?) since the last time I wrote.
(which reading that entry can bring me to tears still, Hearing her fall asleep on the phone with me always does that. Actually, it sends me into a panic attack...)
I saw the band mewithoutYou in Lansing the day after that last post. The guys in the band are wonderfully kind, and it was a perfect distraction from the chaos at home, even if it was just for a few hours. and besides, the music was strangely cathartic, even though it's this strange hybrid of singing/screaming/speaking mixed with guitar, bass, drums and accordions. Trumpets too.
I went to Illinois, Mattoon, to be precise for a week in June. It was amazing. I was a chaperone for the middle school missions trip at my church. I loved it. There was something that was strangely charming about the cornfields. I loved the work we did and the people I worked with, but I could go without digging another post hole through solid clay for a long, long time. The middle schoolers were wonderful. I think I'd like to do more with them in the future.
I finally got a job. I'm working at a little fish and chips shop up Grand River from my parent's house. It's not much, but it's better than nothing. I'm still looking for another job to help supplement it. I've also applied to work in the Empire and Tilden mines up in Mqt. Co. It wouldn't be glamorous, but the pay isn't bad, the benefits are good and it would put me back where I want to be. Cause come winter, I want to be back up there or out west. I cannot psychologically handle another SE MI winter. They're too dreary and dead.
Being home has brought a lot of stuff up... mostly fears about my future, and if I am adequate... the usual, really. It's teaching me how to be content whatever the circumstances. It's a hard choice to make sometimes.
I have been swimming and biking more as of late. It's nice. I can't hardly wait for dance to start back again.
and I was in a car accident too. I'm ok. The cars were not. (I was rear-ended)
anyhoo. I must be off. my dad needs to get my mom a birthday gift/card... and I still need to get her a gift. Her birthday is this friday. I'm glad. I don't think she'll ever know how much I love her and appreciate her.
maybe someday I'll be half the person my mom is.
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Illinois
By Sufjan Stevens
The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades is Out to Get Us!
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I can't believe this is happening.
It's like I'm stuck in this nightmare and I can't wake up...
why would she do this?
I think I'm going to be sick.
I'm borderline catatonic right now, but I'm doing alright.
She's doing alright too... I guess about as alright as someone in her position can be doing.
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